I thank every individual poster for their kind replies. I spent many years in my congregation, loyalty and friendship were not repaid. When I left I never even got a thank you. Never even a phone call. We are all better off if we can wash our hands of such an organisation. Thank you everyone for acknowledging my contribution to the board. " slidin Fast" yes I got to see the Vasa in Stockholm.
I would like to conclude that if as a child you had a dream, mine was to become a professional footballer, and if like me you can pinpoint the moment you realised your dream wasn't going to happen. And if like me you remember the sence of disappointment, well at this moment I can say dreams can come true if you want them to, but if you want them to its up to you. We just need to concentrate on the sugar cube we drop in the coffee, see the little things not the big things. Because the little things are really the big things. Friendship and helping each other on an Internet forum is one of those little things that is really one of those very big things.